I can do a front flip.
Can YOU?!

Well, nothing much new... Not that I expect almost anyone to read this.
Kind of just been taking things slow, sorting old stuff out...

I decided to take peoples' advice and go to a councillor, but that has not yet been a lot of help. He said that it seems like I've made a lot of progress in taking a step back and re-examining my life, and the fact that I've been making an effort to patch a lot of things up with people is good. Unfortunately that's pretty much at a standstill right now, but I've been finding one way or another to pass the time. All in all he said I've got a good handle on things even though they're pretty messed up right now, and I should just keep doing what I'm doing and hope for the best.

I was talked into getting a lawyer too, which I'm not too enthusiastic about, but I suppose couldn't hurt. I just hope things go well on monday, and I don't have to wait too long for the date after that.

Lots of pointless parties lately, I've gone to a few but they're... kind of dull. The whole "have a good time, Cody. get hammered, get laid, feel great" just doesn't appeal to me. But whatever. I guess all I'm looking forward to is court, cause things need to be set right, and I just want to do so.

But that's enough feeling bad. I've been helping out a lot of other people lately, which has been nice. Looking forward to surgery so I can get back to karate is big too. Even though I've done a lot of fucked up things lately, things are getting better, slowly. I think everyone kind of needed a break from me anyways.

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It's been over a year since my last entry... Quite ironic that in that time my feelings on the subject of that entry have completely reversed...

Lately I've been thinking about life a lot. Life in general, what I want to do with mine, what I want to do about how my life currently is... What I look forward to these days is mostly little things like my mom getting home from work or surprises like finding a cat under a bed and cuddling with it, or when it rains for a few minutes and I can go outside and feel it.

Strangely enough, I feel as though I'm wandering around in a dream. Like I'm trapped in this obscure version of reality where no matter what I do now things are going to just get worse and worse.

I pinched myself just now, but I didn't wake up.

I'm looking forward to getting things better though. I'll get my surgery soon i hope, maybe within two weeks. During that time I'll get some tests done to see why I'm coughing up blood, though I kind of imagine that's just another symptom of my allergies due to coughing til I'm dizzy. Hopefully that'll be dealt with soon.

Karate has been a sanctuary for me too. Something that I can just work on for hours and not have to think of anything outside of. Kind of like some sort of meditation, but moving around.

Man... I've really changed from what my old journal entries represent what I was once like... I look back and think about that and it makes me kind of sad to be honest. I think that I'm going to start becoming more like what I used to be like. You should go back and read a bunch of the old entries. The randomness and inspirational energy infused in every word back then!? Priceless!

Oven dodgers... Grade eleven rocked so much...

I don't really know what more to write. Maybe I'll start writing more journals and I'll get into the rhythm of what to write about. But maybe not.

EDIT: Fuck being depressed! Being obscenely hyper, uncaringly irritating, and through it all attaching some sort of deep meaning and awesome inside jokes to everything was much more amazing! I'm going to do a going-to-bed dance now.

I like how William Wallace put it in Braveheart.

FREEEEDOMM!!!!!!!

...ahem